Wednesday, May 13, 2009
It frightens me how vulnerable we men and guys are to sin and temptations. People who are 'up there' and in the field recognise their danger of falling, and we who are 'normal' going to church on Sundays, and perhaps, lead groups, do not see the danger. And it is those who think they are stable who will fall. Each compromise leads us closer to the edge. I have heard, seen and experienced things that show me clearly the dangers of sexual sin. It doesn't matter if you're a pastor or an overseas worker or a church leader or just one of the normal members, you ARE vulnerable, and if you fail to admit that, you are positioning yourself for a fall.
And I see we don't have an accountability group back in Bethany (not that I know of). Even the overseas workers here are meeting up twice a month to check on one another.
Monday, May 11, 2009
Chicken a la Carte
Makes me think of the condition over here. Some regions, the farmers can only grow enough food for half a year, because of the climate and land. They tend to starve the other half so death from starvation isn't an uncommon thing though we might not see it back at home or even in cities here.
A short film about hunger and poverty.
Click on the Link below and see.
This video really touched my heart, hope it touches yours too. =)
After watching the video, let's think about this.
-What can we do to help? For real, not just pity talk.
we may already be so used to being apathetic to the people who suffer alongside us in our society, on a daily basis...
how will we go after the needy, the poor,the widow and so on?
we've got to tear down the walls of religion,
wake up for the call of loving, starting with people near us.
live like Jesus. love like Him.
Chicken a la Carte : Director: Ferdinand Dimadura | Genre: Drama | Produced In: 2005
Synopsis:
This film is about the hunger and poverty brought about by Globalization.
There are 10,000 people dying everyday due to hunger and malnutrition.
This short film shows a forgotten portion of the society.
The people who live on the refuse of men to survive.
What is inspiring is the hope and spirituality that never left this people.
http://www.cultureunplugged.com/play/1081/Chicken-a-la-Carte
Friday, May 8, 2009
祷告 - 赞美之泉
祷告,因为我知道我需要
明瞭,你心意对我重要
祷告,以假装不了
祷告,因为你的爱我需要
你关怀,我走过的你多都明白
有些事我只想对你说
因你比任何人都爱我
痛苦从眼中流下
我知道你为我擦
在早晨我也要来对你说
主耶稣今天我为你活
所需要的力量你天天赐给我
你恩典够我用
Beautiful song...
I pray, because I'm so small
I pray, because I know that I need to
Understanding the importance of Your will
I pray, I can no longer fake it
I pray, because I need Your love
Your concern, Your understanding of all that I've been through
There are some things that I wish to tell You only
For You love me much more than anyone else
Even as pain flow down in the form of tears
I know You'll wipe them away
In the morning I will come to You
Lord Jesus today I'll live for You
You grant me the strength that I need each day
Your grace is sufficient for me
Lyrics from http://kohpatsy.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!31184E3A8CB2FAC5!1984.entry
You can hear the song from the links there as well.
也因如此,我开始在找三种朋友:走在我前方的、和我并肩走的、和走在我后边的。每一种朋友都会带来不一样的友谊,而且都重要。或许我们会问,为何需要回头帮助别人,对我们又有什么好处。在这时刻,我也没有任何的答案,不过我往往在帮助别人时,受益不浅。
我在这又发挥了吸尘机的功效。不过,吃了这么多,我有个问题。到底多跑到哪儿去了!?
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
I heard of a story yesterday. There was this worker who came from overseas to share the Word in a particular village. He worked there for years, teaching and sharing with the people there songs and living with the people. Years passed and when World War II broke out, he was killed when the Japanese invaded.
His daughter returned to the village years later when she was already 80+ years old only to find that the work her father had done was lost. The villages still remembered this particular person, and some of the songs he taught, but besides that, nothing changed. The church is being used for something else, only being truly a place of worship on Christmas itself. She was so upset, she wept.
It makes me think, will what I do be burnt to the ground in the end? Would I escape, but just with my life, everything else gone? How does it feel to have all my hard work amount to nothing?
Little did I know I was to feel that exact feeling just later in the evening.
In order to plant more vegetables in the garden plot at the office, the soil had to be tilled. One of the staff, in doing that, destroyed most of the garlic I had been growing and caring for the past weeks. Losing my work wasn't a good feeling; there were feelings of anger and loss. I didn't have to sacrifice my life for these plants, and yet the feelings were intensed. It would be much worse for the daughter.
A passage came to mind with regards to these, plus a comment from a book I was reading just that day.
Unless [He] builds the house,
its builders labor in vain.
Unless [He] watches over the city,
the watchmen stand guard in vain.
In vain you rise early
and stay up late,
toiling for food to eat -
for he grants sleep to those he loves. (or for while they sleep he provides for those he loves)
Of interest is the later part of this chapter (Ps 127) which I only noticed and started to think about recently:
Sons are a heritage from [Him],
children a reward from him.
Like arrows in the hands of a warrior
are sons born in one's youth.
Blessed is the man
whose quiver is full of them.
They will not be put to shame
when they contend with their enemies in the gate.
And this reminds me...
Again I saw something meaningless under the sun:
There was a man all alone;
he had neither son nor brother.
There was no end to his toil,
yet his eyes were not content with his wealth.
"For whom am I toiling," he asked,
"and why am I depriving myself of enjoyment?"
This too is meaningless -
a miserable business!
- Ecc 4
Building and standing guard has been linked to sons (and daughters, don't worry sisters). Work is not doing things, but reproducing (you know I'm not talking about multiplying your genes in the biological sense), otherwise, it'll all be meaningless at the end of the day.
And this particular book I was reading just in the morning was talking about whether we are building His kingdom or ours. If we were building His kingdom, even when all my plants and effort was destroyed, as long as I have put in my best, I will not be (too) upset. He gives and He takes away, may His name be praised.
One comment which sounds like a modern day Ecc so I'll state it in that manner, which I think all of you have heard before.
Again I saw something meaningless under the sun:
Young men work and toil at the expense of their health,
and in their old age expend all of it in order to regain it.
This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
When you make a vow to [Him], do not delay in fulfilling it. He has no pleasure in fools; fulfil your vow. It is better not to vow than to make a vow and not fulfil it. Do not let your mouth lead you into sin. And do not protest to the temple messenger, "My vow was a mistake." Why should [He] be angry at what you say and destroy the work of your hands?
Ecc 5
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Not an exact translation of my previous entry but along the same theme and similar in content.
The staff are a fun bunch, and understanding their language, character and background helps build the relationship. I realised, once again, that a little humour and lameness goes a long way in getting people to warm up to me, or in this case, warm up even more. So it's Isaac's lame jokes, Chinese version. I needed to be more proficient at the language, however, so it kind of took a while. I was even quieter, if it were even possible, here during my first 2 months, but an unexpected lame comment, the kind which might make Jia roll her eyes, and the ice breaks.
9 more months. Time is short!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
My boss to his staff - You've to be careful of the quiet ones like Isaac. They don't say much, but when they do, they'll blow you off your chair! -_-
Some things I heard from the couples I met here:
1) Long-distance relationships can work. My boss and his wife developed their relationship while he was over here and she was back in Aust. They met when he went back to attend a friend's wedding, got to know here and maintained their relationship for over a year (if I remember correctly) before getting married and she moved over.
2) Couples can start out disliking each other (like TV shows and movies). This couple who visited us from Aust (also, hahaa) started out disliking each other, and in fact had very different personalities (opposites attract, so they say). It takes more work, but it can work out too.
3) There is a special one for you. The couple of point 2 were brought together by Father. It's a long story, but He brought both of them to the same congre, had people speak to each of them about the other person, and basically led both of them to realise they were meant for each other.
4) Couples can be brought together by Father from different lands, and He can give signs to show that each one that they are meant to for one another. I sat down at the lunch table in time to hear this story of how this couple met each other a few times in different countries. And the guy developed feelings for the girl, but he wasn't sure, so he asked for a sign that if she came over to his place that night (which had never happened before), she's the one. He even went out to stack the odds against him, only to receive a call from the girl saying she had something to discuss with him and was coming over. He confessed his feelings and now they're married with a kid.
Well, I wonder why I keep hearing these stories that break my preconceived notions that these things are just fairy tales. I won't say this is the norm; they may perhaps just be exceptions, but these things can happen. Perhaps this can benefit some of you reading, hahaa.
Another tip for you guys that I heard from my boss today. Girls want to be chased, even after marriage. It does stop at marriage.
Wonder why I'm getting so much exposure to this, or probably because I'm keeping an ear out for these stories? Hahaa, not sure, but sure is interesting, heh.
Gardening and Retreat
It's nothing too exciting or amazing, hahaa, but I started working on the garden in the office building. The staff gave me something easy to start with - garlic and some sweet potato. There was nothing growing out of the ground for almost two weeks after I planted and the staff started commenting, perhaps it's because the garlic was old and had died. I also had my own doubts about the soil since they wash their mops there and all the detergent and dirty water might have killed the soil, but that was only one portion. I continued to water everyday regardless. And the result was growth! Not one, not two, but 5 now. Probably with more watering, I'll see more sprouting.
The staff must be amused to see me planting the seeds of whatever fruit I ate, and to keep watering despite the lack of growth. They even said they'll get me proper seeds since it must be disappointing to see a lack of results.
I also cleared up their backyard, but it's probably too dark to grow plants here. Probably I can transfer trees here after they've grown a bit. A male stuff and I managed to clear a lot of the overgrown plants here and we've turned a 'forest' back into a backyard. I had to cut down some of the bamboo plants and I'm reminded of one of Jacky Chan's lines from one of the Rush Hour movies. "Chinese bamboo. Very strong..."
I just came back from a retreat and initially was wondering how my plants will be. But I was pleasantly surprised to find that more plants had sprouted; especially the seed which I planted in a container and set on my window sill. Previously, a weed was all I got, now, there's a little seedling.
A man scatters seed on the ground. Night and day, whether he sleeps of gets up, the seed sprouts and grows, though he does not know how. All by itself the soil produces grain - first the stalk, then the head, then the full kernel in the head.
The speaker for the retreat was a very good one. He talked about Joseph's life and how it applies to people who have left home to work here. I am very sure the BCI people are touched by his words. He spoke of detouring, not reaching the destination directly, but having to move on elsewhere first; of delaying, having to wait and wait for something to happen; of being faithful where we're planted, as Joseph was as a slave and in prison; disappointments and betrayal and yet still have the grace to forgive and serve when we're down ourselves.
He even talked about another thing, being faithful in relationships. I had always wonder how difficult it would be to be faithful if as a single, it's so easy to be attracted to attractive women. Would getting married make it easier? Of course not. It would take work on our part. He was honest in saying that we would still find people who draw us to them, but it would be our job to put distance between as, going against our heart (not following our heart as the saying goes so commonly) and that requires self-discipline.
We had a talent night and amazingly, no 'forcing' was required. People volunteered on their own and I got roped in into a group of youths because they lacked a person. Still don't know why I agreed. Anyway, it was just doing some easy repeated actions, but it was comical. The audiences were laughing away.
Even young kids sang, danced, acted. Kids from primary school to secondary. There were many solo violin recitals as well. The children were amazingly sporting. There were these 2 sisters who even went up repeated times and danced, surprising even their father who was playing the guitar, thinking they were just going to sing, hahaa.
Some of us, 2 sg and lots of Americans went to a nearby cave to explore. I was expected to see some natural wonders but was disappointed. The cave was carved out with steps and lights. Coloured lights. Blue, green, red. When I told my boss, he and his wife laughed about it.
There's a place called dinosaur valley near my town, and I was thinking of visiting it. Apparently they had discovered dinosaur bones and fossils there. Now, I'm not sure if I still want to go. It would be traumatizing to find a dancing T-rex skeleton complete with multi-coloured disco neon lights...
Sunday, April 12, 2009
True love and finding it...?
Lectures first.
Three kinds of love (might be more, but the lecturer says these are the main ones):
"I love you, if..." If you do this or this, I'll love you. Can one keep on fulfilling certain desires?
"I love you, because..."
Because you are like this or that, or because you have this. What exactly is the object of love? The person or...?
"I love you, no strings attached." Agape, so to speak.
No price for guessing which is true love.
True love isn't blind, rather, it sees the other person for who he/she really is, strengths, weaknesses, character, faults and all, and accepts that person.
True love doesn't expect the other party to change, and instead focuses more on what we ourselves can offer. Change comes when each individual feels so loved and cherished that he/she wants to change to become a better person.
True love is built upon three things:
Respect
Friendship
Trust
Characteristics of true love:
Love is patient, love is kind... so on, you know the drill.
Part two, from an Australian Chinese couple:
(Suddenly I recalled a phrase that caught my attention some time ago: He made Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve)
It's the guy's job to go look for the girl. The proactive one. Adam looked for a helper among the animals, but couldn't find one. (Sounds wrong, lol.)
But it was Father who brought her to him, and once he saw her, he knew she's the one. So guys, while looking, don't forget you need help from Him as well.
Eve didn't exactly do much, just let Father lead her to him. So she's the one doing the waiting for the right guy.
Then it's the fall.
The snake went for the woman, why? She's more easily swayed by words, her weakness are her ears. The man would not be so easily swayed by words.
But then his weakness was his eyes. He was swayed by the woman. The woman might not have been swayed by the man if he didn't know what to say.
And then the curse:
A woman will long for her husband and he will rule over her. And so what a woman needs most in a relationship is love from her husband. And that is why husbands are called to love. Take note guys.
A man's curse is to work the field, no matter how tough, and so his desire now is towards his work. But his need in a relationship is one that respects him, no matter if he performs well or not. Take note ladies. And guys, you have to lead in the relationship.
We then split into male and female groups for more discussion. Guys if you want to know more, ask me personally. Hahaa.
I'm not certain if it's all 100% true, since the drawing out seems a bit far-fetched at points, but well, general characteristics of the 2 genders seem fine enough.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
He said, "I know that 1 cow is the price of a wife, but the wife I want is 1 that is worth 12 cows, not 1."
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
BBQ with Uni Students on 28th March
We started the day with a simple song, one about chasing your dreams and not giving up. It has a nice tune to it and meaningful lyrics. The kind of song where youths like to sing, hahaa. A short time of games followed. Most of you will remember the game where a group of people have to flip the groundsheet over while standing on it and not letting anyone step out onto the ground. It was then bbq time!
They used small pits where everyone could sit around it and cook and eat together. Much better than those we have at home where just a few people can do the cooking. Veg is the main source of food here, even in bbq. We had jiu cai (not sure what's the english name, heh), cucumber, egg plant and sliced potatoes. But what's a bbq without meat? There was also beef, chicken wings and luncheon meat.
It was a good turn out. The skies were cloudy, but thankfully, it didn't rain at all. It usually did when skies were like this.
I took these while we were on our way back. And now I understand where 'Every cloud has a silver lining' comes from.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Lecture 2 - Is it Love or Something Else?
The next series of lectures are on what true love is, and why true love waits. The links to HIV are obvious. And as expected, the first lecture this evening seen a great turn-out, filling almost the entire lecture theatre. We had skits in the lectures to portray 'counterfeit love', and because the female actress, a staff, was too shy to play in a particularly embarrassing skit (she was already having trouble playing the girlfriend of the male staff), guess who had to take over? I can say this is the worse situation after the famed matrix robbery. I have to do this 3 more times... and our boss said he'll have his wife bring a camera, or even a video cam... I can't access youtube here, for some reason, so hahaa, you won't get to see it.
It's might not be a surprise to note that more than 2 thirds of the lecture attendees were female. And also, just this morning, the female staff asked our visitors, a married couple, to give a talk on how to find a mate, within His will of course. We guys had a lesson as well, and indeed, I learnt something new.
Can't wait to get another shot at climbing up a mountain which I only managed less than half last friday!
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Over the Mountains and the Sea
I made my way to the foot of the mountain despite forgetting my map (well done x1) and on the way up, I realised I forgot my gloves as well (well done x2). Well, I didn't want to make it a wasted trip so I went ahead anyway. I was tired out even before I reached the forests, but it was ok inside the forest itself. Probably cause I had to take careful steps inside, so I couldn't go fast and so it wasn't tiring. Some parts were steep though. Going up was fine... coming down later wasn't easy at these parts. I was practically sliding down.
In between civilisation (top) and the forest (bottom).
Lots of nice interesting plants, but not much flowers though. Heard that they're higher up.
View of the city and Er Hai (a lake actually), though named Er Sea.
Dear WL wanted pictures of birds so here they are.
LOL, the birds I've seen are our sg sparrows and some other green yellowish bird which I couldn't get a shot of, sorry. Very few birds in the city. I can hear them calling in the forest, but can't get a shot at them.
Fried Er Si. My first attempt at cooking here. It smells not bad, but tastes as bad as it looks. Not giving up though, will try again!
Friday, April 3, 2009
Thursday, April 2, 2009
I want to go fishing! Hahaa. A classmate reminded me of the advantages when you're sitting in front of the pole waiting for something to take the bait. It's a time to pause and reflect, a time to spend time with Father, a time to sit down and enjoy the scenary.
He also gave his 2 cents on why people work and work. It's a good way to push all other things out of the mind. Problems, unanswerable questions, relationships with other people. In his words, it's a selfish way of escape from other things. Things which I feel have more worth than work. Though it gives satisfaction (sometimes), more often than not, it just takes you away from everything else. Of course, this can apply to anything which you decide to throw yourself fully into. This is my philosophy, do everything in moderation, which I learnt recently was the main philosophy of the Chinese as well. There is of course one thing, or rather one person, that you can always want more and more of, but that is because He is the one controlling how much you see of Him, and He won't let you have more than what you can take.
I've decided to try to do a little study on one of the books. It's part of a collection of books that the the author of How to Read the B calls the wisdom books. I've always been very interested in those books, especially this particular one. Just one phase and I think you'll know what it is: "vanities of vanities", or in my translation, "meaningless, meaningless" hahaa. Now you know why my thoughts and posts are swaying towards that area. It's actually a more hopeful book that it initially seems.
Thanks for those who told me they miss me. Hahaa, even if it weren't true, it still feels good nonetheless, lol. To be honest, I didn't think my disappearance would make any difference. Thanks to those who came to send me off, and thanks also to those who can't but sent their wishes!
Monday, March 30, 2009
Even here, I find myself looking for things to keep me occupied with, and find it really tough when I have nothing to do. I'll log on the net, surf around, look around the office for something to keep me occupied with, and only with effort do I try to pause and reflect, though it's getting a bit easier. I fear going back, when I'll be trapped in the same rat race all over again. That is, unless I can develope the habit here to do so with discipline. Yes, even resting requires discipline.
Not just us back in sg, but for the people here as well. No wonder we are burnt out. No wonder we gradually forget why we are doing all this. No wonder we cease to become human beings and become human doings...
Friday, March 27, 2009
Itsy Bitsy Giardia Swimming in the Lake
My favourite parasite from the modules infectious diseases and microbiology. Mainly because it's so easy to recognise under a microscope and it has an easy to remember name. This little fellow causes diarrhoea 1 week after ingestion and is spread through contaminated food and water. It's quite common over here so be careful what you eat.
I vomitted the whole night on Sunday. It was probably the bread that I kept too long. Though it was a terrible night, It's a good thing that everything I ate was removed and nothing was absorbed into my system, which would be much worse. The next day was a tiring one, and an aching stomach, having worked the whole night to push everything out. But otherwise, I was ok.
Hahaa, guess what I did to the computers at the office? I set up a wireless network for them, lol. So now, more people, including me, heh, can access the net at the same time. There's a desktop and and laptop here, so at least 2 of them can be on at anyone time.
I found something else to do at the office when I'm bored. Will show you more when I got results from my work, hahaa. I am really settling in.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Saturday, March 21, 2009
This week was rather hectic. Afternoons are alright, but nights are all burnt. Lectures and small groups with the students of the university. The topic was media influence, and it made me realise how much movies and songs, and esp games. Look at dead space on youtube if you want to see how violent games can get. Warning, extreme gore, digusting monsters and horrible ways of dying. Not for the faint hearted.
Also, you can listen to this ridiculous song.
A couple of my friends and I went for a climb up a mountain. Turns out they had a little park up there. Quite a nice view.
My first photo on this blog, hahaa.
Just a month and He has already shown me so much about myself. There is still a long way to go, but when I start focusing on 'fixing' myself and less on Him, I've already lost focus.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Need to be sensitive about cultural issues. Learnt recently that Xiao Jie (Miss) actually means sex workers for the people here. No wonder a nurse giggled when I addressed her in that manner. Come to think of it, I'm very fortunate to have only earned a giggle. I could easily have earned a tight slap...
Monday, March 9, 2009
Sunday
Where I use my computer.
Oh, it's cleaner than it looks. But it runs on solar powered water heater. So cloudy day = no warm water = cold shower in a cold evening =S
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Food Stuff Kunming Style
Got to eat a lot of local food, thanks to my friends here. The guy is a relative of the sisters, the 2 on the extreme right. The girl in the middle is a friend of the sisters. I got to try the girls' cooking.
Friday, March 6, 2009
Flowers, Zoo and Cherry Blossom Festival
When all the trees are budding
The birds begin to sing
The flowers start their blooming
Flower pics requested by HY.
Streets of Kunming.
From Dali. Those below are from the Kunming Zoo, celebrating the Cherry Blossom Festival. You can see why.
This is the Peacock Garden. The one below has opened up it's tail feathers. We were waiting for it to raise its tail up, but it was just grooming itself and had no intreast in the female in front of it.
Amusement park in the zoo!?
I hate formatting paragraphs with pictures in blogger...